THE LOCAL LENS
THOM
NICKELS
At The Spirit Newspaper's first
anniversary party a group of us began telling war stories about our time as
writers and reporters for other newspapers. As the oldest person in this august
assembly, I was not short on stories. As
I used to say to friends, “Just name the newspaper, and I’ll tell you a story.”
When you’ve written for nearly every publication in the city (except Philadelphia Magazine), stories come easily.
I wrote for the Philadelphia Gay News (PGN) for a number
of years sometime after its founding in 1976. It made sense to me to write for
PGN. I wanted to do something to combat the hostility and discrimination I saw
in society regarding gay people. As a PGN writer I could write about gay lives,
interview gay artists, and talk to politicians about gay issues. In those days,
mainstream press outlets such as The
Philadelphia Inquirer did not always report so called gay news. In some of
these mainstream news stories one could sometimes detect outright prejudice.
This is why PGN became a valuable, priceless asset. This was the era, after
all, when Philadelphia Magazine had a
ban on gay dating classifieds in their personal ad section. Censorship like
this is hard to conceive of today.
I’m sure I wasn’t the only PGN writer who
experienced negativity from editors of other newspapers. When applying for a
reporter’s job at The Germantown Courier in
1980 (I had sent them my resume beforehand with my connection to PGN clearly
visible), I thought I had a fair interview until I stepped out of the editor’s
office and heard a staffer remark, “You know, I half suspected he was going to
walk in here with a purse.” This comment, I think, was based on the stories
about gay issues that I had published in The
Distant Drummer and in PGN. Needless to say, I didn’t get the reporter’s
job although The Courier was willing
to allow me to freelance.
Prior to writing for PGN, I wrote for the radical
gay press in Boston . One newspaper
was called Lavender Vision and in my
stories there I castigated straight radicals for their disparaging views on gay
liberation and their use of the word fag,
which was very common then. I would hawk
Lavender Vision in Harvard Square , shouting to one and all, “Get your Gay Liberation
newspaper!” I had a scruffy beard, long hair, and I wore wide lens German
aviator glasses. Passersby seemed oblivious; nobody blinked—this was bohemian,
sophisticated Cambridge , after all.
When I joined the staff of PGN, I started
writing features, then went on to write a weekly column entitled Profiles in which I interviewed prominent
members of the community.
I became acquainted with PGN publisher
(Mark Segal) and other writers on the staff. PGN’s editor had been a friend of mine in Boston so I felt very much at home. As reporters and columnists, we had our work cut
out for us because it was a highly politicized and dramatic time when gay men
were getting arrested in Center City late at night just for walking or talking
together in so called gay areas. A police wagon would pull up and ten men
gathered around a stoop would be ordered inside. When the city’s first Gay
Rights Bill was introduced in City Council (this bill sought protection from
employment discrimination), antigay protest groups held vigils and petition
rallies outside City Hall Annex. During City Council meetings the level of
ignorance sunk so low that protestors shouted how homosexuals all had rotten
teeth. An outspoken homophobic preacher, Germantown ’s Rev. Melvin Floyd, was probably the most famous
homophobe in the city then. Floyd would
ride through Center City and the neighborhoods in a truck with a dummy’s head
protruding from roof while he screamed Bible verses at passersby through a
megaphone.
All of these stories, however unpleasant, had
to be recorded. These were among the best years of PGN, I think, because the
hostility of the outside world drew us (the staff) towards one another in a way
that soldiers in a war are bonded and look out for one another in times of
trouble. PGN was needed in those days, but I’m not so sure that’s the case
today when most publications report gay
news.
Still,
when I’d visit my parents in those days my mother would always ask me when I
was going to get off the gay thing. “You’re limiting yourself as a writer,” she
said. “Can’t you branch out? It’s all you write about. Gay. Gay. Gay!”
Mother was right, of course. I told her I’d stop writing about gay issues when
society stopped making being gay an issue. Then I’d drop it like a hot potato.
With the PGN staff I wrote features on gays
and alcoholism, religion, the AIDS crises, and for Profiles I interviewed gay
Catholic priests, gay Wiccans and pagans, motorcyclists, athletes, lesbian disc
jockeys, AIDS researchers, bar owners, bartenders, authors and activists.
But no columnist’s or reporter’s life is
without major hurdles.
After
one Profiles column, in which I
interviewed a popular lesbian disc jockey, the woman telephoned me in a rage
and insisted that I had portrayed her as “a slut.” I had no idea what she was
getting at but read and reread the column for covert slut references. I showed the column to friends. “Do you think
I make her out to be a slut?” I asked. After
rereading the column a number of times I came to the conclusion that she took
objection to my calling her an attractive woman and then by quoting what she
had told me during the interview, namely that she was tired of men whistling at
her when she walked the streets of Philly.
“But I only wrote what you told me during the interview,” I said. But I
might as well have been speaking to my bathroom wall.
For extra money, I took a Friday job driving
the PGN company car while another staff member distributed papers to all of the
vending boxes and distribution points in the city. I’d drive for five minutes,
stop at a box as my co-worker got out and filled it and got back in the car
before somebody behind us honked or rammed into us. It was much like driving a
taxi with constant stops and three minute ‘parks,’ while dodging mid-city
traffic and lights. Some Fridays the traffic stress was so great that my
co-worker would scream when I missed a box or took a wrong turn. One minute we’d
be laughing together, but then a kind of road rage would take over. Whenever I
see images of Edvard Munch’s “The Scream” I think back to this little driving
job.
It was a sad day when my Boston friend (Stanley Ward) left the editorship of PGN, but
things seemed to work out for a while under the leadership of Al Patrick, who
had stellar Ward-like qualities. I was now writing a PGN column about famous
gay men, bisexuals and lesbians in history, which later formed the genesis of
my book, Out in History. I wasn’t
quite so cozy with PGN’s publisher at this point but we were still on good
terms.
Then a prolific lesbian PGN writer charged
me with anti-Semitism because in my column on Dame Edith Sitwell I wrote that children
all over England would race to their TV sets whenever Dame Sitwell
appeared on TV. I had quoted another writer when I wrote that the children of England loved Dame Sitwell because she looked like a witch
with her hooked nose. Blame it on the English children, I said, the hooked nose
part was not my doing but a quote. Happily, the “attack” journalist and I later
reconciled.
In
the life of every newspaper journalist there comes a time when a Darth Vader
editor takes over. This is the type of
editor that likes to clean house and hire a new staff just to put his/her
signature on things. Darth Vader editors can also mean “death” for certain reporters
and columnists. The reasons for this can be varied, and may be only partially
articulated within the editor’s head. I saw the Darth Vader effect post PGN when
I wrote a biweekly column called Different
Strokes for the Center City Welcomat. When
Editor Dan Rottenberg left The Welcomat,
he was replaced by a New
York editor who
quickly alienated a number of long time staffers. This eventually led to a
revolution of sorts when a new publisher organized a silent coup and fired the New York guy very soon after he was hired. Here we had two
editorial Darth Vaders in mortal combat, and it was ugly.
When a Ms. Darth Vader became PGN’s next
editor suddenly newspaper life for me became foreboding.
For years I had been writing for PGN with
comparable ease but now suddenly every word I wrote was called into question.
Ms. Vader would call me and go over my columns like a dentist going over tooth
x-rays that show hidden decay and gum disease. Sometimes she’d want a sentence
that was buried in the column to be the lead sentence, or she’d tell me to
rewrite two paragraphs, or use a period instead of a semicolon, or open the
column with the sentence I chose to end it with. Sometimes she’d request that I
turn a column inside out and start from the middle. Other times she wanted the
middle extracted and new editorial stuffing inserted. When I would do as
instructed, she’d call or send a note in the mail and state that I was still
not listening to her.
Ms. Vader was making life so difficult for
me that I began to dread writing my weekly column because with every word I
wrote I kept seeing her red pencil and hearing her angry voice on the phone. She
had succeeded in freezing up my creativity. I began to hate my column, Out in History.
Today I read PGN only because it comes to me
online and because I occasionally like to bathe in nostalgia. When I read PGN there
are rarely any “news” surprises because more often than not gay news is
available elsewhere in the bigger papers like The Philadelphia Inquirer, The
New York Times or the Huffington Post. Gay news is now a mainstream affair
because it is no longer the taboo subject it once was; the age of the gay
ghetto is over.
Just writing these words reminds me of what
Barbara Gittings once said when she talked about gay people joining all- gay
churches, namely that one day something like this will be unnecessary because
liberation and freedom will have been achieved.
With churches or newspapers, the same logic
applies. PGN has done its job, and it has done its job magnificently. It is a
tribute to its success that gay news is now…everywhere.
The fat lady, in all her glory, is getting
ready to sing.